Boston
The 2KBoston interview was today. It is unbelievable how these things drain you. At the moment it did not feel very stressful or particularly hard. I avoided thinking about it at all until today, and that helped me control my nerves. But the adrenaline was running all day anyway, and now I am crashing and feel like I am getting sick. I have no idea how it went, really. Mostly it felt like I was just talking to a bunch of guys about games and stuff. There were a few questions here and there, but not the type with an obviously right or wrong answer. And I have to say, looking back at both the California and Boston interviews, that the people in the game industry seem to be a lot nicer than I expected. I can not tell you how many a-holes I have met at interviews with "normal" companies. These guys are very different. Also, I was pleasantly surprised at how the 2KBoston team approaches the division of work. My main concern about working big companies is that you get pigeonholed and can only work within the confines of your "expertise" area. I find that repulsing. Yes, I am a hopeless dreamer and I am in a LOT of trouble.

So, what do I expect? I do not know how much of this is just a defense mechanism to avoid getting hurt by their rejection, but I really am not thinking about it right now. I will allow myself to give it some thought if they come back with an offer. All of my energy right now is being put into exploring the possibility of working as an independent game programmer. I just need to work on games, and I need to believe that being "accepted" by a big game company is not a requirement for that. I know I have the skills and the desire to do it and I know that I will be happier working on that and that is all.

And now, I need some rest. Tonight we will watch a movie and relax. It is not something that we have done very often since I quit my job, believe it or not. And I will spend the rest of the week doing some work for my old company. It should not be too bad, and I will be doing it from home. It is almost like taking a payed break, but luckily not a very long one. Later!